wash me down, clean
me off
bind my bones into my skin
throw me to the sea
and watch me
float away
food for the deep
and as the fish nibble
as my bones dissolve
into the briny stew
I will remember
the beauty
the crystalline moments of frost sparkling
in the sun
your laughter rising from your lungs
like steam
the fragile pockets of happiness
swept up
into the swirling currents of my life
I will remember
welcoming death
a solemn look of knowing
in her eyes
more terrible for the fact that I had
seen it before
seen it
in the landscape of my childhood
in the shimmering golden
leaves
the aspen maidens
gathered together like virgins
to witness, untouched,
the passing of time
I have left you nothing
I know
but then what would I leave
the likes of you
I can only say, well done
my friend
well lived
well loved
and so now I rest
in the only place I can rest
the murky black
the mysterious deep
the salty womb
returned to the bitterness that once
ran through my veins